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Losing Aby: Grief and Stillness

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Losing Aby: Grief and Stillness

It is done. There is a stillness in the house that I don’t recognize.  My husband asks if I want pasta and wine. My son is singing Jeff and Paige songs. I realize that the stillness is actually inside of me- her parting gift. I wish to hold her warm body in my lap, stroking her head and gently rubbing the pink spot right above her nose. Instead it’s my laptop on my lap. A poor substitute for a soft, furry friend and the feel of her breath going in and out. I wish I’d have remembered that more throughout the years when my computer sucked me in. “She went really quickly,” Danielle says. “Her body was tired. Sometimes they hang on for us.” The stillness. Suddenly I am...

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